I just recently had my yearly procedure that helps me breathe better. No matter how many times I go through the surgeries it never gets easier. It’s painful mentally and physically, so I started walking as soon as I was able to. Often times I like going to Ladera because it is a long hike and its very peaceful and beautiful. But for some reason I could not get out of this exhausting depression that kept gnawing at me everyday, and one day it got so bad I broke down in tears of anger and frustration because I would think that I will never get better and even if i try to fix the problem for good it will probably get worse over time so there is no point of living like this anymore. Then I began to think about how some pelicans go blind after years of diving into the water to catch fish and how they will kill themselves instead of learning to survive blind. So at the top of the hardest part to hike, I stopped and looked over the high canyon cliff and cried because I wanted to jump. But i didn’t I kept walking because I can’t just give up and abandon my dog mid hike. Then the next day I I was feeling completely down, I had zero energy, but I still came back to Ladera and as I started out of the parking lot my Doggo stopped to deep sniff a spot next to the park fence and there was my purple heart. Thank you whoever left it there it totally made my week. Out of all the people that passed it only I noticed it, and it is my favorite color. If I would have given into those negative thoughts I would have never found it. I see it as a sign that I was meant to be there at that exact spot at that precise moment.
You have no idea how much this means to me, I am deeply and forever grateful. <3
